#so there's also a certain detachment to it

[bee-devilling]

I'm gonna be so honest, I'd wanna be an understudy above anything else. Like it would be so fun to play different people every evening, and also I think I'd be able to play a few different people. If we say that I get to rehearse for those few weeks/months, but I don't actually improve in any meaningful way between now and opening night, I think I could play Noel, Constance, Jane, and possibly Ricky? Ricky is like 50/50, but I have such good ideas that I wanna keep him on this list anyway. TO THE CHARACTERISATION IDEAS:

Noel Gruber:

I'd keep my long hair for this role. Somewhere way back I reblogged someone's post about Noel having long hair, and my addition to it was the symbolism it could hold, but even just to have it for Noel's Lament would be awesome.

More feminine voice + French accent for Monique's character in Noel's Lament. Mostly for the fun of it, but I could add some feeling in there. There are certain lines where I'd obviously go back to Noel's voice (eg. “I want to be that fucked up girl”) and that would also give me the opportunity to do it elsewhere too. Imagine blending from Monique to Noel during “Just to somehow prove I'm still alive”.

Subtly (or maybe not-so-subtly) staring at Mischa during This Song Is Awesome when he rips open his shirt.

Also staring at Ricky after the outfit change in Space Age Bachelor Man. You know, it's a real shame that he's the only gay guy in Uranium City, cos all the men around him are kinda hot.

He is so uncomfortable during The New Birthday Song. He actually wants to just sink through the floor. But he can see how much this means to Jane, so he's doing it anyway.

Also really uncomfortable during the scene directly after TNBS. Mostly because he hasn't had a one-on-one conversation with another man in years without someone calling them both gay. He is just hyper alert the whole time. At the end, he has to look around the warehouse several times before deciding that no one is watching, and he can lay his head on Mischa's shoulder without judgement.

Goes to hug Constance before her moment with Ocean after Sugar Cloud. This man has come to Constance's defense the whole musical, he isn't gonna not comfort her after that.

Him and Ocean hold hands during It's Not A Game/Just A Ride, like when they're all standing in a row? He totally acts like she's given him cooties the first time she reaches for his hand though. Then he actually grabs her hand and it's all sweet.

Constance Blackwood:

Jane Doe:

I have hypermobile shoulders, so I can kind of make it look like my head is detached. I will abuse this for Karnak's Dream Of Life. And maybe the rest of the show, I think it would be a funny gag to have her head fall off and to have her just instinctively catch it before it completely goes (cos obviously my head can't come clean off, I'm not that good)

Hypermobility would also be fun for the rest of her doll-likeness. Like imagine at some point in The Ballad Of Jane Doe having her collapse in on herself like a ragdoll.

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Ricky Potts:

i have a fun question for people!

if you had to put on/be in a production of rtc from now (with same the amount of time to prepare as any production would, starting today) but you still only have your own current skill level, who would you play and how would you do it?

this is more directed towards people who don't have much or any theatre experience because it's fun to think about but anyone can answer, im just curious :D

[rookflower]

asoiaf/got/hotd is a fun fandom to exist on the periphery of because it fulfills that niche of engagement to me of "what if wc gave a fuck and was actually well written in regards to its attention to detail" (sprawling fantasy political drama series with 10 billion characters that's. riddled with issues to pick at but also raises a lot of interesting or engaging characters and ideas). however the thing is i would also not go to most places in that fandom with a sword

[screambirdscreaming]

Not a coherent thesis here yet but I've been thinking lately about the dynamic of.... people who loved you unconditionally as a kid (or on the condition of being family, which is another weird dynamic) - but as you got older that became strained because you grew into someone they didn't expect and they realized that they did have conditions, actually.

I mean. There are people who had conditions all along, but just didn't mention them until you didn't meet them. And there's people who spent the whole time actively trying to mold you into someone who would meet their conditions.

But there's also people who truly didn't realize that you could grow up into someone that surprised them, that pushed their concepts of normal reasonable people. I think often because they themselves were constrained in their childhoods and mentally closed off whole worlds of options of ways people could be, without realizing it. So they thought kids just sort of naturally grew out of those sorts of quirks and eccentricities. Without realizing how much that dynamic was driven by active suppression, and how weird people could get if you just let them.

There's one such person in my life who has truly tried to grow and learn as this has come up, over and over again. And I really love and respect her for it, even if sometimes its a little exhausting to have to keep pushing at it. Keep explaining, and expanding, and not being hurt by her baseline of confusion that I'm still just.... not someone she knows how to expect. Even after all this time. But she does love me unconditionally. And for her that's the baseline, and she's willing to put in the work to expand her understanding of the world to know what it means to love me for who I am, even if it doesn't always come easily to her.

And then there's other people who run into this same tension and don't know what to do with it. They don't realize that loving you for who you are means putting in work to expand their concept of ways people can be. They don't try to overtly push you into not being like that but they keep holding out the expectation that you will, because how are they supposed to love you being like that? And of course as a kid, a teen, a young adult, you don't really have words for it either. You can feel the tension, the dissonance between the way they openly offer love to you that doesn't seem to fit, and the way they react to with confusion or distaste to parts of you that you can't change, or don't want to. Sometimes to things in yourself you can't even identify. So sometimes you make an effort to hide those things and act like they want. And sometimes you buckle down on being yourself. But neither approach really seems to fill the gap. You can't recieve affection and have it fit at the same time.

And eventually it just feels like you've sort of failed each other. By the time you have the words and self awareness to know what went wrong and where, it's too late to draw the chasm closed.

It's not too late to bridge it. But if we make this effort as adults, with the conditionality of adult relationships, you'll have to see me as I am and accept that - or be a stranger.

It's weird, to be like strangers with people who've known you your whole life.

[unreadpoppy]

I was talking about this on twitter but i wanted to talk about it here too that like, for me at least, playing as fem hawke lowkey brought an even bigger sense of dread during all that remains is that added realism of like "this could happen to me".

Like, i'm a woman so I already know this sort of stuff because of the world we live in, but it was really interesting to me to feel that also during a game. It's not a pleasent feeling, mind you, but I think it added a sort of like realism that I wasn't expecting.

I know that Hawke is supposed to look more like their father, but I also like the idea of if Hawke looked more like their mom and that sense of "what if this had happened to me? could it have happened to me?" and that being another added layer of how fucked the world is.

Idk i liked that. It's awful and it's interesting in a gaming perspective. I don't think it was intentional but i don't mind. I like seeing this sort of stuff because like...most of the games I've played, the protagonist was a man, and so I could never really engage with stuff that I felt i could relate to since i'm not a man irl. So it felt interesting for once to see something that definetly lingers on my mind a lot be somewhat shown in games.

[daisybell-on-a-carousel]

🫂 it's ok. I'm sure it was just a trick of your eyes

Wahhhhh

[starlene]

starting to feel really complicated about the upcoming Finnish production of Moulin Rouge!

[leehallfae]

my “feeling” of gender (whatever that even means) has always been shifting very slowly over like years of time, so i feel like i was a girl and then became nonbinary and had a phase where i resonated with the term transmasculine but now (currently) i lowkey just feel like im a girl. but i can’t tell anyone because that’s crazy humiliating after having been out as trans for years. lol

[mainfaggot]

having the same old (stupid) realisations in the (stupid) shower in the (stupid) suffocating summer heat and the (stupid) melancholy swallows me whole... and i almost enjoy it as much as I hate it because it's all I've ever known since I was 13. maybe this is the flavour of the warmer months. maybe summer was just meant to be: chunks of honeydew and peach getting caught in my throat, failing my mother again and again, and falling asleep in dark humid rooms only to wake with glassy eyes and a dry throat. is this what it means to experience the human condition.

[moderatetoaboveaverage]

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[hightowres]

nice to see you back but i'm curious why you haven't been posting about taylor? are you still a swfitie?

i'm not really that invested in taylor right now, i still listen to her music sometimes but i wouldn't say i'm an active fan. just a personal thing though, like i just don't particularly care abt her atm

[nomaishuttle]

i kind of dislike that its like. focused on your sim being a landlord it seems (from surface level looking into it) But whatever

[prettyboykatsuki]

every time i fixate on a new character u gotta let me cook like 3-5 business days before i have a settled opinion on them

[teenangstenthusiast]

since im a musical mood now im gonna talk abt zoe murphy bc i have a lot of feelings abt her

[8pxl]

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[spookymoonmagpie]

TERFs just feel like they're so fuckin angry all the time. That's gotta be miserable surely. Like, just. Go do a lil day trip. Spend time with your kids. Filling your world with rage makes you miserable, but the seaside? That goes hard. Go to a penny arcade

[astrobymarwa]

Little things i notice about the moon signs:

(Again, other placements will affect your moon. This is just my opinion and what I've noticed. Feedback is welcome ofc)

Aries moon can be a bit impulsive. They process emotions in a simple, almot innocent way. They feel strongly about things.

Taurus moon shows their feelings in practical ways. They're usually not upfront about it, but if they like you, you'll know. They like to do little things for people they like without the person knowing.

Gemini moon can be good public speakers and be multilinguals. However, they might express different sentiments than what they feel inside.

Cancer moon (if developed) are the most emotionally intelligent of them all. They understand how their feelings completely.

Leo moon (if developed) are very generous, they'd give everything to those they love. They're confident and know their worth.

Virgo moon can get caught up in their own world. They think about certain things so much that they can get detached from reality

Libra moon (i'm sorry) but they can be people pleasers. They try to be kind to everyone that they can get fucked over by people.

Scorpio moon can sense when they're being taken advantage of fast. They're observant and notice things earlier than most other people. They also don't really forgive people that have wronged them

Sagittarius moon usually can't sit still, especially if they're worked up. They hate feeling restricted (in a physical and an emotional way)

Capricorn moon the least expressive moon sign. The type to express themselves in action rather than words. They can be really sweet if they want to. They'll always defend what they believe in and the people they love.

Aquarius moon's feelings are all over the place. They have unique views on things and say things that make everyone go ??

Pisces moon are usually quiet. They daydream a lot and are soft-spoken. They're also usually artistic (even if they're not artists themselves they'd still consume and appreciate art a lot)